I don’t how I’m going to get through all of this. I’m bad enough when I’ve just got one thing to worry about but it seems to be everything at the moment:
Ive had a few UTI’s since September and my last two urine samples (one that was sent to the lab before Christmas and todays at the docs) both have shown blood but no infection so she’s referred me for a 2 week appt to urology. She said it might be from my last UTI and that my bladder could still be irritated.
I’ve also got a pelvic and trans vaginal ultrasound booked in a few weeks after a gyno appt I had a few weeks ago because of a burning sensation in my vagina that started at the same time as my UTI. The gynaecologist did an examination and said he couldn’t see anything wrong and didn’t think it was anything to worry about but would get a scan sorted and would phone me after to discuss the results but he thinks it could be cystitis or a stone rather than a gyno issue.
Then over the last 5 days I’ve had pins and needles all over but particularly in my hands and feet along with muscle spasms. I spoke to the doctor about it today and she said it could one of many different things as it’s quite a vague symptom but I started getting upset and told her all the serious things it said on the nhs website like diabetes, ms and blood cancers which I told her I was scared about the most. She then looked concerned and said she’d get my bloods done and has put B12 and suspected diabetes along with a bone one and others. I know it’s not a b12 deficiency because I take multivitamins and the more I read the more I’m convinced it’s cancer.
Ive also had pain in my rib cage under my right arm since July and pain in both sides of my pubic bones. This linked with everything above makes me worry the cancer has spread or that it’s a blood or bone cancer.
I feel so close to giving up. I’m having CBT every week but I can’t see how I’m ever going to get through this. I hate waiting for test results and I’ve got three tests coming up and I’m so scared it’s going to be an untreatable cancer. I can’t bear the thought of saying goodbye to my husband and girls.